On other days, hopefully most days, being a school leader is a great job. You can make decisions that change lives for the better, and seeing a child beam with pride as they achieve their personal best is second to none.
But there are dark days, difficult times, when you are called upon to carry out some pretty awful tasks, make some heart-wrenching decisions and take the flak when you aren’t able to fully explain your actions because of safeguarding, confidentiality or a reputational issue that might otherwise damage your school.
In leadership roles we will all have to manage some awful situations; to discharge a keen but woefully ineffective probationer, to write management cases for disciplinary hearings where you’re recommending dismissal, knowing full well that employee will struggle to find suitable work again. To write a list of potential redundancies that includes people you consider friends, because you have to be seen to be completely impartial, but deep down you know they haven’t been pulling their weight.
Those times are tough, but somehow you harden your heart and put the school’s interests first. And the policy is your bible, your friend, your shield, and behind it you can justify being a heartless villain in the name of education. But it still hurts. It hurts when you see the looks you get in the canteen. When it goes quiet when you walk into the staffroom. When you read the comments on the leaving card of the person you’re letting go and you put some money in the collection but you don’t sign the card.
All alone at night when there’s just you and your morality, it hurts then, too, but we reset, we refocus and we get up and do it all again, because that’s the job, and the best you can do is what you’re doing. And the best you can hope for is that the decisions you make are the right ones, for the right reasons, for as many people as possible, for most of the time.
Please tell us your thoughts in comments or via Twitter ~ Tamsin
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